I hereby invoke my “English is my 4th language” excuse…

(okay tbh it’s not really a good excuse, since I came to the US when I was very young…

But in my defence I hated Reading/Writing classes tho… had self-confidence issues and took years till I felt like I “know” the language… math was always my favorite…)

Ahhhhh no I dont wanna touch grass.

The grass is lava.

(I’ve been procrastinating my writing project for like… months… probably a year… lol)

(Did you know, the outside world has monsters that will abduct people and eat them?

USA btw… ICE… 👀)

No because killing a cow isn’t murder either

On a DVD Disc, Yes.

I guess they put a program on a disc that the dvd player was able to read off of it. Idk how that shit works, don’t have it anymore. Like its not a normal dvd player… it has a ports for 2 controllers… and it being a portable dvd means it had an internal battery and a screen.

I think it had a lot of Nintendo games on the discs.

I remember there was a Kirby… I remember we brought it with us to the US, and I remember playing a Kirby game for a while but like you know… electronics eventually wear out… I think it stopped working within 4 years…

My most memorable game is probably Tank 1990

Like I remember we had 2 discs, one was a normal size dvd, the other one was a smaller dvd… like it’s half the normal diameter… idk why those “tiny dvds discs” even exist lol…

I think they had like over 100 games probably

I did a quick search and the DVD thing looked like this:

Example: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3JzkQzl6qc (you can skip forward to see it in action)

The one we had, you can rotate the screen left and right like this:

(Besides the “DVD Player” thing, I also remember game cartridges… I remember my brother blowing into the connectors to clear the dust… but I can’t remember what the machine looked like… maybe the dvd thing has a slot for cartridges? or maybe rhat was a separate thing… idk cant remember)

This was in 2002-2010 btw

I guess Funeral Processions are a good thing?

Wtf is a Funeral Concession? Only transporting half of a body?

somebody knew how to solve that thing

I didn’t get to meet many people because my parents think the there are kidnappers everywhere so I just got stuck at home beside school time…

I think during breaks, they sometimes take us back to one of the parent’s village, and there I remember we were allowed to run around since I assume everyone in the village knew each other and I remember hopping on to other people’s roofs with my older brother… I took a peek down the sky-window thing and saw spiderwebs in one of the houses… could be abandoned… idk…

My pre-internet days:

-Dialing random numbers that I think had some weird mini-games or something… on the landline that cost money

-downloading games on my dad’s motorola feature cell phone that gets charged to the phone bill

(my older brother dared me to do it so he got most of the blame for it xD)

-accidentally triggered the SIM PIN Lockout and my dad had to go to the phone store to get a new sim

-Also my older brother pouring a whole ass bottle of white-out and igniting it on fire… WHILE WE ARE LOCKED INSIDE THE APARTMENT WITH NO ADULTS HOME (luckily the fire just fizzled out after the fuel (the white-out) burned out)

Okay, but there are also normal stuff like:

-Board games? Most kids in China of my generation didn’t have siblings so I guess some would call that “lucky” to have a playmate (but he was also abusive to me 😕)

-Bootleg Video Games on a CD/DVD disc inserted into a portable DVD player (sometimes hooked up to the tv) and you plug in controllers and you can play games on it… you can plug in two controllers and play 2player games… I think I played that with my older brother sometimes… he always made me 2nd player with the controller that had the mushy buttons 😕 (it’s what I get for being the 2nd born i guess)

-A windows computer with a bunch of music files but zero internet…

-I remember Yu-Gi-Oh Cards…

-Rubic’s cube I think? But there was no internet to look up how to solve it so it’s never solved (until way later into my teens when I got internet) so I just took it apart and reassemble it…

-Cartoon stuff… that I never really paid attention to probably because it’s boring af so I don’t have much memories of it except like a few faint images that I’m not sure of.

-Mostly just locked in the apartment when parent’s aren’t available

Feel free to ask questions… I wanna see if I can jog some memories…

Edit: Also: While I don’t have memories of this because I was young and didn’t care about adult stuff like current events… I can imagine the news being all one-sided and only supporting the state narrative… so at least you don’t need to use your brain to think and no divisiveness… National Unity lol… very Harmonious indeed… /s

You lease out one of them…

I mean you’ll get lynched by Lemmy for doing this, but that’s how you realistically gonna make money from it.

Philly houses are like $100K back in the early 2010s

taxes were around $2000 ish per year…

So we moved from NYC and used to be renters… but now we own the house… (well I don’t have a share, its technically my parents for the time being)

So you’d think: well great! no rent anymore! perfect? Right? RIGHT?

fast forward…

Kids were more racist in school and I got bullied a lot. (I’m ethnic Chinese)

😭

I hate Philly, I rather be in NYC. 🫠

So yes, home ownership and all… but at what cost?

Ghetto ass place :/

Caused me so much anxiety and self esteem issues and probably one of the major factors into my depression.

/endrant

idk man, sh.it just .works here 👀

(use another instance lmao)

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Lmao I misread it as “Librarian” and was like Librarians are anarchists? 🤔

Like I just had the image of a librarian throwing molotov cocktails 🤣

they said that since we’re stuck in Switzerland and I seem quite bored, and since I’m a legal adult now, why don’t I go on a trip abroad alone?

Personally, I never traveled abroad alone…

The only “travelling” I’ve done without parents was on school trips… (I remember going to Washington, DC once.)

I think its benefits doesn’t outweight the costs for me.

If I was still in China, maybe I would have more of an incentive… I mean its hard to get information from within the country due to censorship, so I’d probably be more willing to take risks and go abroad… I would probabaly have more willpower to just “tough it out”.

But I already won the “lottery” (metaphorically, China isn’t actually eligible for an actual lottery since there are already too many people trying to leave) of being able to get out as a family… so eh…

The thing is… I felt safe(ish) when I was a kid under my parent’s protection. Every burden of documents and planning is on parents, you get to be stress free and be ignorant to everything…

Idk if I could manage everything solo like visas, going to various appointments for documents… getting place tickets… waiting in an airport, making sure my stuff isn’t being stolen… booking hotels…

and the most important thing… making sure yoi have enough funds…

just thinking about it feels stressful.

Internet here is uncensored afiak so I feel like I have even less of an incentive to do traveling right now…

The US is kinda big… I still haven’t even explored my adoptive country yet… only been to NYC and Philly…

there are still so many places I could go domestically and its less stressful (aside from ICE… but if I go abroad re-entry to the US isn’t exactly gonne be fun either)

I’ve always wanted to go to Canada as a family (minus the toxic brother… haven’t gotten along with him for many years now)… Like it just feels less terrifying to be with family. Never gotten around to doing it… always putting it off and procrastinating (parents had the funds but I think they were busy)… then Covid hit and then the thought of travel sort of went out the window for a while…

Then I got depression…

And then we got a “new sheriff in town”

So now I don’t wanna be crossing borders for 3 more years… 👀

TLDR: Emigrated with family, never really travelled solo, lacking the motivivations + anxiety/depression make it hard to do it solo.

👀

Any kind of slur

Clanker

“If XYZ people would make racist comments”

Lmao you have no idea how often people make “do you eat cats and dogs?” “jokes” to me when I was in school. Both white and black kids, and even hispanic kids too, basically every Non-Asian makes those “jokes”…

I don’t ever recalled eating a cat or dog…

And even if some people do… you can’t really be judging what people eats in a country with a different culture and was in a war-torn state after the invasion by imperial japan. Would you rather people starve to death?

Also I have a cat as a pet and its not food

I’m Chinese American.

The silver lining is: if your nudes ever leak, you can simply claim its deepfake.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peOFMz4ca6c

Yes…

Unfortunately I’ve been just been binge watching a bunch of random stuff and been procrastinating on it…

Don’t worry… I’ll get that done some day…

5 decades later…

“Eh, I’ll work on it tomorrow…”

(My most recent binge-watch is Frieren… lots of flashbacks… just like I go through a lot of “flashbacks” everyday lol… it’s so poetic, so rhymey)

Sometime between the age of 8 and 12 I remember I started to question authority, not government of countries specifically, but just the concept of authority.

I always felt like teachers were against me for some reason… frequently I got marked for “bad behavior” and weren’t allowed to go on trips…

Then I learned about Tiananmen… for context my family were all born in China… my older brother who actually went through like 7th grade in China was so shocked learned about it in the US and I remember him telling me to look it up online…

Then I remember my mom started telling me about the One Child Policy and how I was the one born against policy…

So yeah… you can see how I’m starting to get very skeptical of things

Then I learn about all the bribery stuff in US Congress, SuperPACs… etc…

US Cops shooting people and getting away with it…

The infamous Gun Trace Task Force of Baltimore

The Great Firewall of China and the censorship…

Then my “arc” completed when I was 17 and got arrested on false accusations of “agravated assault” when I was acting in self-defence against a racist bully in school… even the school admin sided against me and tried to expell me…

So by age 18, I distrust governments… and authorities in general…

Especially the PRC Government and the US Government

I mean distrusting authorities is a very American thing to do…

(Distrust PRC significantly more intensely because of the fact that they tried to end my existence)