I mean I have indecisiveness issues.

I was supposed to pick an English name so its easier to pronounce than my real name, but kinda procrastinated and didn’t feel confortable actually using a “foreign” name when I didn’t even speak the language at the time.

So like… hypothetically, if I were trans, not only would I be so afraid of picking and using another name, I would probably just be too scared to actually transition and keep hiding it in my head forever, I never gave any thought to such hypotheical names.

Although I wonder, if I was AFAB, what name would my parents give me? Kinda wanna ask them for fun.

Not really a loophole, more like legal grey area stuff that is hard to enforce.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Japanese_nationality_law#Dual_nationality

Dual citizenship of Japan and another country is prohibited in some cases due to the provisions for loss of Japanese nationality when a Japanese national naturalizes in another country (see “Loss of citizenship” above), and the requirement to renounce one’s existing citizenships when naturalizing in Japan (see “Naturalization” above). There are still some ways in which a person may have dual citizenship of Japan and another country, including:

They acquire multiple citizenships at birth, such as being born to a non-Japanese citizen parent and acquiring that parent’s citizenship as a result of that country’s laws or by being born in a jus soli country. However, they must choose one citizenship/nationality before the age of 22 or within two years if the second citizenship is acquired after the age of 20, or they may lose their Japanese nationality (see “Loss of citizenship” above), although this is often circumvented by dual Japanese citizens not using a foreign passport when entering or leaving Japan.

In practice, dual nationality may also be maintained with states not recognized by Japan such as in the cases of North Korean or Taiwanese dual nationality as the Japanese Ministry of Justice does not recognize either North Korean or Taiwanese citizenships.

I never had friends in China, I never missed anyone “back home” (well… its not like I got to know any of the relative very well, so I didn’t miss them being 8 at the time) but I constantly think about the hypothetical alt-universe where I never left China… like for better or worse… its hard to stop thinking about it.

I feel like I belong in neither places.

Like existential crisis stuff.

On the surface, in 2010, the US was also seemingly welcoming, but you have subtle casual racism stuff, especially when you move to less-immigrant cities like Philly. Kids here wete just horrible. The Elementary school I went to had not much Asians so racism was common, worse in middle school.

Like you had no idea how much shit I had to go through, and identity crisis. Who the fuck am I. I don’t know if I can do this again, especially the learning a language thing, now I don’t have the advantage of youth again. And I’m the adult now having to plan everything, instead of everything already being done for me.

Like… it’d be so sad if I pick a place, miraculously get an immigration visa, then that place goes to shit AGAIN, then I’d have to do this v3.0 lmao

Depression is killing me lol

I think for me, its not just “move to EU” that easily. Like… the population of Asians in EU is much lower afaik, I would feel even less “belonging” there tbh.

I heard its by age 22

2 decades to decide

Something you can look forward to: you get to watch anime without subtitles after you learn Japanese :P

Its funny how my mother has did some arranged marriage thing for my older brother and… basically I overheard some talks about visas and that he was going back to China for marriage or something (相親 is the term for it I think), and by marriage, I assume they’re gonna live in the US since all the family assets are here. Like they already exchanged WeChats… I have no idea how that’s gonna go, dude has no social skills, probably worse social skills than me lmfao.

I have -99999 social credits at birth

Reason: The crime of being the illegal 2nd child born in violation of the One Child Policy

Punishment: You now must have at least 3 children to fix the declining population/birthrate

PRC Government in a nutshell

(/joke, idk if the social credit thing is actually real)

They can deport you. Unless you try to claim asylum, but then you need to “prove” that the US Government is actually persecuting you, do you even have such “proof”?

if you do want to leave, it can be worth studying your family tree to see if there are any recent immigrants.

Family tree. 👀

I was born in China, I don’t wanna go back.

I could theoretically try to recover citizenship, but nah, there is a reason why we left in the first place.

I saved my self a bunch of times by convincing my self to not kill myself.

Does that count?

I think digital pictures are gonna cause a lot of problems with trust, especially if you have a bit of paranoia.

I watched a Vsauce video on the idea of implanting false memories and I got scared af. Like I always mentally add a “this info is from X source” sort of “tag” to the memory, but after learning of that concept, it made me more paranoid. I have childhood photos (in physical form) that I kinda doubt if its me. For all I know, my mother could be not my real mother and those are fake photos to remove any doubt.

Imagine the future of internet photos? AI generated fake photos? Are your parents really your parents or just kidnappers?

(Okay maybe I watched too many documentaries on kidnappings)

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Native speakers of my mother tongue do not all understand each other due to some pretty extreme dialects.

我觉得年轻一代已经懂国语了，现在重要的该是保留中国各地语言的 variety, 保留文化，保留不同种的声音，的特色。

消灭地方语言不值得，可双语教课。广州该教广州话，上海该教上海话。同时也教普通话。

I love this saying 失敗乃成功之母

“Failure is the mother of success”

Whenever my mom talks shit about me, I just use that phrase, to imply she’s worse than I am. xD it’s always funny every time.

I think I heard it being used in some TV show and I just copied it to my Lexicon ever since.

chinese dialect sounds so different that it might as well be another language

Yue Chinese（粵語）(the most comment variant thereof is known as: “Cantonese”（廣東話）) is not a “dialect”, its a totally mutually unintelligible language.

But unfortunately, as the saying goes: “A language is a dialect with a flag and army”

There was some rumor / urban legend that Cantonese nearly became the national language by one vote, I have no idea how true that is, maybe just a myth lol.

But like I like Cantonese so much better, like a Chair in Mandarin is 椅子 (yi3 zhi1), in Cantonese is 櫈 (dang3); because there are more tones and more initials + finals combination, there are oveall more sounds possible to pronounce, therefore you can have one syllabel words, while the Northerner Variant (aka: Mandarin) has less syllabels, which means, it just sucks. I’m a native speaker to both and Mandarin sounds so harsh for some reason… always sounds like everyong is so serious… (to be fair, Cantonese also reminds me of my parents yelling… but it sometimes can sounds very hearwarming, like 海闊天空 (song) is my favorite thing to listen to in Cantonese)

There are so much colloquiel sayings that are impossible to convert to Mandarin (or would otherwise sound so weird and wrong).

Can we start a hashtag thing?

#SaveYueChinese (it’s better than Mandarin)

Eh, you don’t need to simplify it down so much.

I mean Simplified Chinese was just slightly altered and it retained most of how it looks and I mean, a population of 1.4 billion? And like nearly all the younger generations are literate.

I managed to… um… not die… cuz a part of me really just wanna kms for some reason…

Use Affirmative and Negative like a bunch of soldiers lolz

I don’t even know much actor names.

But I think the first foreign name that comes to mind was 奧斑馬 (Obama) I don’t think those are the correct characters of the transliterated name, but that’s how I thought heard the adults said it, I think it was like 2012, right on election year and my mom was talking to like a friend/acquaintance, and Obama was talked about. But the 馬 immediately made imagine like: does this person like horse or like come from a family that has horses, then I think later I learned about presidents in school and learned the English version of Obama and I was like: oh it sounds the same as the 奧斑馬 the adults talked about, its the same guy right?

But does Obama like horses tho? 🤔 (I was so silly as a kid lol)

Street names, there is one memorable one in Philly Chinatown called Race St or 禮士街 on the sign (it’s in both languages on the street sign near the Chinatown Area).

In Cantonese, 禮士 sounds too close to 瀨屎 (to shit yourself) lmfao I always tell my dad “hey it’s the 瀨屎 street” and laugh when I see that street sign, yes I’m that immature (I mean I was still a minor when I was first in the Philly Chinatown, you know, jokes like these was nornal)

As for Chinese first names, yes I joked about my parents names a lot, but unfortunately I can’t share those jokes since its personal info.

I don’t really have memories of names of classmates when I was in school in China, like who cares about classmates. None of the nameswere memorable or that I can make a joke out of.

As a teen, I noticed that Xi Jinping, the Xi in Mandarin sounds too close to 屎 in Cantonese so me and my brother would just call him 屎精評 in Cantonese which sounds almost the same as Xi Jinping in Mandarin. 屎 for shit and 精 is a character in 妖精 monster, and 評 is commentary, so Xi Jinping is a monster that shits itself while public speaking. xD