Go have a wank, you dont have to force someone else And if she touched you without consent that is sexual assault
I know I’m being a little hostile. My post does not mean that you, reader, are a terrible person. It just means that I am a little annoyed personally about this subject. For me it’s fucking crystal clear.
Therapy can give you the tools to navigate your own feelings and if you decide to make a connection the tools to navigate that. Someone objective with your best interests in mind that has experience with this will be a huge asset.
Dont feel obligated by societies expectations, just act in your best interests and set boundaries. Sorry it’s such a vague response, but everyone is so different,and relationships are complex. Unloading onto a professional can really help.