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Cake day: November 22nd, 2025
  • emotional_soup_88@programming.devtoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world•Are You Emotionally Prepared To Die?English
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    3 days ago

    No.

    The mere thought that my life is going to end at some point makes me freeze up emotionally and physically. It exacerbates my depression to a point where I sometimes simply call in sick.

    It’s sad. There is so much beauty in this world, in our existence, in our universe and one day my body will give up because of old age or because of sickness, depriving me of it all.

    There is so much that I haven’t experienced, and it’s not relativistic. I don’t buy the BS that some people try to console me with when they say that the only reason that I value life and all it’s beauty is because it’s finite. F*ck you all. I genuinely weep at the sunrise, at the beauty in people, at the undiscovered knowledge of the universe regardless. I wish my life would never end.

    For those of you that know the Japanese animated series Naruto, I feel so much compassion for Orochimaru, even though his human experiments were vile and evil.

    My depression sometimes makes me want to stop existing to stop suffering from it, but that’s a sickness and an internal struggle and it doesn’t represent my true feelings. I don’t want to die.

  • emotional_soup_88@programming.devtoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world•What items do you have multiple of even though one would suffice?English
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    10 days ago

    Chances to make a change in my miserable, depressive life. It only takes one opportunity to capture, one chance to seize and decide to do things differently, but alas, I’m not there yet. Thankfully, I have multiple - nay - an unlimited amount of chances ahead.

    Materialistically speaking, off the top of my head, maybe my physical security keys (Yubico)? I have a backup key so that I don’t get locked out of my accounts in case I loose my main key, but I could manage without the backup. Jeesh, it’s hard to come up with something material that I have multiple of since I’m a minimalist and literally have like ONE plate and ONE spoon/fork/knife if you catch my drift.

  • emotional_soup_88@programming.devtoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world•*Permanently Deleted*English
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    11 days ago
    • Scheduled messages - in case you realize you want to say something but not today
    • Flashlight - let there be light
    • Lockdown mode - in case you are at a rally and for some reason don’t want to turn off the phone
    • Sensors off, developer quick setting - to turn off sensors in addition to airplane mode in order to save battery even more
    • MAC address randomization - for privacy
    • The ability to attach a USB or wireless keyboard to type longer texts
  • emotional_soup_88@programming.devtoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world•Do you believe people should have the right to self-destruct if they want to?English
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    13 days ago

    How is this even a question? You have the right to do everything and anything to yourself.

    On another note: I really appreciate your level of insight! The pills are obviously solving a problem or two for you - you can sleep and and you don’t feel like dying, if I understood you correctly.

    And now some unsolicited opinion. Feel free to disregard!

    Every step one wants to take away from addiction must start there, if you ask me: respect that the substance, the ritual, the behavior or whatever one is addicted to is in fact solving a problem for you. We are not that intelligent on the primal level to sort things out “logically” when we are in a fight or flight situation. Only after having accepted and defined what problems the addiction has been solving should one go to the next step: is this method of problem solving sustainable? What does it give me vs. what does it cost me? Depending on where you are in your journey, one might accept certain costs - for instance physical and financial health - in order to gain certain things - for instance mental stability, sleep, a sense of happiness etc.

  • emotional_soup_88@programming.devtoAsk Lemmy@lemmy.world•How can people communicate with AI as a friend or girlfriend?English
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    18 days ago

    If this is a technical question:

    Prompt the AI on one of hundreds of available websites: https://perchance.org/ai-artgen Or self-host your AI and prompt that: https://github.com/AUTOMATIC1111/stable-diffusion-webui

    The above are just for images. I’m sure there are identical counterparts for creating conversation bots.

    If this is a question questioning why people do it:

    Loneliness? Involuntary isolation/alienation? Dopamine quick fix? Pick your poison.

    PS: the below pictures are AI created. I prompted the above website to make me a Lúthien from Tolkien’s world holding a silmaril. Perhaps after it being cut out of the belly of the werewolf Carcharoth and returned to king Thingol, Lúthien took it from her father, the king, snuck out with it at night and in the silent forest of Doriath reminisced the time she spent with her beloved Beren. The blood could indicate her, in her rage and sadness, having slewn a few orcs that had strayed to far into the realm of Thingol.

    PS: I hate it when AI art is allowed on forums where actual artists display what they paint and draw. AI is not art. It’s just good fun. Sometimes.