I’ve seen a lot of people here comment the same thing, I find that really interesting! Maybe I haven’t thought deep enough into it, but I would much prefer an afterlife if I had the choice. But even when I still prefer an afterlife, you make a really good point as to why an afterlife sounds scarier than just dying, so thank you!
so many people have said exactly this in the comments, so thank you for being another one of them! I actually sat down and thought a lot about how I’ve treated other people and have been working on completely changing that. I’ve recently messaged someone who I blocked many years ago and said I was sorry for being an idiot and being rude where I really shouldn’t have been, cause people like you have made me realize how stupid I really have been back then and how much more important other peoples feelings are. he actually forgave me and seemed happy about it, and gave me some good advice. that was awesome! I’ve been trying a lot harder today to make strangers days better and a little happier when we meet and move on from each other (which can be pretty challenging to do with some people on the internet, but possible!) and it’s definitely made my anxiety a lot less, not completely gone away though and I hope to get back to a somewhat normal state soon where I can sleep better at night. I hope its not selfish for trying to become this person only after having someone close to me die and having these thoughts roam around my head, I just never have put a lot of thought into other peoples feelings or the situations they’re in. I have made a promise to myself though to keep trying for others even if and when I start to feel better again myself.
wow sorry for the rant, thanks again and I really appreciate your comment!