Comparing free porn to Netflix is the problem. Pornhub vs. YouTube is more comparable.

Burn it off

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What city are you close to? Can you look for work in Columbus? It’s much more liberal and there are more people who are like minded. You might feel safer being yourself, while still being close to home. It would be a smaller move, if you have to move.

If you have the ability to, please seek help from a professional. It sounds like you are really struggling. Once you are in a better place mentally it will be easier to tackle these life things you don’t have the motivation to do. You have been surviving so far, following what was expected of you. Now that there isn’t a definite next step it’s harder. I would recommend putting whatever energy you have into finding a therapist.

You can do this! You have reached out for help already, which is really hard. Honestly you are amazing to have survived with who you are intact. I can’t imagine the strength it would take to live with people who believe you should be killed. To constantly be afraid of being found and hurt. You grew up being enemy lines when it should have been a safe haven.

I could set the building on fire…

I raise you The Holy Grail.

Tin foil is excellent for cooking. It works more as an oven and just add water and it is a steamer.

Dude no! Like a 15 minute time out is ok. But if they ask for water they should be given it. Locked away alone in a room without supervision for hours? No. That is not normal. At all.

Honestly the best thing is to learn how to fall without getting hurt. And how to bail safely if you lose control of the horse. That’s some of the first things you should have been taught when you were learning to ride.

Best thing to do when falling is tuck and roll. Keep limbs from getting stepped on, get away from the horse, and prevent a hard landing.