No, because I’m fine being on my own.
I have my hobbies and pets, and if I feel too isolated I can go out and chat with a neighbour or any stranger on the street, or to a concert to be one with the crowd, or pick up an online game.
If I was with someone for money, it’s only because I didn’t like them enough to be with them for free. In this circumstance I would probably need the money, so I’d not be unhappy about it, but it would definitely not make me happy either or be an emotional boon. And I don’t think I could respect the person who paid, no matter how convincingly I would pretend to.
Relationships are best when they are wanted, not needed, which is why I could never be with someone who was only with me because I paid them: I’d much rather be alone than be with someone who didn’t like me. Paying for it is a surefire way of knowing they don’t actually like me, and the idea of someone being with me against their own wants and desires just because I pay them…I would just feel so gross. It’s okay to be alone.




The show Crazy Ex-Girlfriend has soooo many songs that could fit, this is just a few trying to keep to the relatively spoiler free ones:
Unhinged (healthy) : “let’s generalize about men”
Unhinged (unhealthy): “I’m not sad, you’re sad”
Trying to be fully hinged: “without love you can save the world”
I really recommend people to watch the show to find the rest and the best, rather than just the songs/clips. Some of them atäre truly elevated by context, and some are excellent standalone but too spoiler imo.