You are right, I don’t use it for text. Is that something illustrator does? Coming from inkscape I missed a lot of features in illustrator (university pays for the license). And as I stopped using After Effects the only reason to use it was gone.
I have been using inkscape for vector graphics since more than ten years. It is FOSS and does everything I expect.
Maybe not smoking so much weed might help with this.
I quit smoking weed after I had been looking for my phone under the bed for half an hour - using the flashlight of my phone.
Pretty normal adhd behaviour