Customer Service Skills, aka the skill of eating shit.

Yeah I expect to die alone. I’ve had some romantic partners in the past, no kids, and one sibling with which I am on good terms with, but not particularly close. But by the time I die, it’s very likely I’ll have no one save for maybe a long distance friend or two.

Given the state of the world, I expect that if I am lucky/unlucky enough to reach my elder years (currently I am middle aged), I will experience worsening conditions as climate change and political turmoil makes resources more scarce and I become increasingly more feeble as my body and mind succumb to whatever fate has in store for me.

Long of the short of it is I don’t expect my death to be quiet or peaceful. Whether somebody is there or not at the end doesn’t really concern me. My legacy definitely doesn’t concern me.

That said, I’m sad that it’s likely I will have contributed jack shit to making this world a better place by the time I die (quite the opposite actually), and if there is a Hell, I won’t be surprised that’s where I’m going.

If I downvote a comment or post, it’s mainly because I don’t think the comment has any value and/or doesn’t add anything to the discussion. If I don’t like the poster specifically because their idea reflects a harmful mindset I want to discourage, then I’ll sometimes go the extra mile to specifically tell them to fuck off, because yeah, fuck them.

Fucking this!

I’m getting a CS degree now and even though the math still eludes me quite a bit, just understanding that LLMs are essentially a bunch of Linear Algebra and Matrix Multiplication calculations to weight a series of vector scored words to approximate desired output demystifies the whole thing and makes me very angry that this is what is being sold as the next big thing.

It’s not. It’s an impressive milestone in Reinforcement Learning achieved in 2017. The use cases and prevalence of “AI” has less to do with it being an impressive piece of tech, and more a reflection of the failures of humans, specifically humans in the tech sector.

Just replace “it” in the first speech bubble with “your partner” and the humor kind of sort of makes sense.

The living face of Steven Miller.

Don’t worry about a thing. Every little thing gonna be alright.

I’m an absurdist laughing at the fact that there’s probably no punchline coming.

Yeah, most people don’t have to go that far back at all.

Sometimes I’m pretty sure I don’t even have to look at my family, I can just look in the mirror.

Anyways, that’s enough self loathing for the next 10 seconds, enjoy your shower and your thoughts.

When I have trouble concentrating on what I’m reading be it for work, education, or pleasure, as long as I’m in a space that allows for it, I’ll read aloud. It’s surprising how much more enjoyable/bearable this makes it.

Also, if fiction, you can practice your acting skills during character dialogue, which can be fun/mildly embarrassing.

Oh the absolute worst one. Everyone gets locked in eternal solitary confinement with no lights, no touch, you don’t know if your whole body’s gone numb or there just isn’t even ground beneath your non existent feet. When you try to touch yourself there’s nothing there and yet you are painstakingly aware of somehow existing. Every nanosecond feels like an eternity and you’re constantly being flayed, drowning, burned alive, raped, and jump scared by the worse horrors you never imagined could possibly exist. You never ever pass out or sleep or have any form of respite except to give you context to your indescribable suffering. You hold only so much memory as to know there once was a time so much better than this, and you never figure out that you’re dead/immortal because that might cause you to become psychologically numb to it, so even that you don’t have going for you.

Anyways, yes, the worst one, that one. I choose that one.

I won’t lie, and I’m sure some would have some criticisms, but that sounds like a good enough cure to me.

Well there’s always this more “humane” take:

Must have been some Mad Honey.

Life drawing. I took a class at least twice a week for 6 years back in college and was a TA for a semester. I also just enjoy teaching those with a desire to learn.

EDIT: wrong time amount.

Live out the dystopian future that is Westworld.

Any terminal emulator, but I prefer the suckless terminal. After that I guess zsh and neovim.

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