Sorry I’m depressed af and need answers. Are y’all even real? What if y’all are just part of the program to torture me? What if this is a test? What if this is a VR simulation and the societal collapse is just moral character test to see if I would be do anything about it? Like imaginr a society in the far future like 26th century and in a history class where people are wondering “why didn’t the 21st century humans rise up against their oppressors” and then this VR simulation is just testing the students “what would you have done”
(Sorry for the bizzare question, its just brain chemicals acting weird today :P)
An yes, main character syndrome. Are you a teen? Teens in particular have a warped perception of everyone else’s attention.
This kind of thing is found in more than just teenagers
Sorry I didn’t mean it like that, my brain isn’t operating at 100% cpu right now, its hard to think clearly with depression.
About 2 decades ago I was a fetus and a government ruling over 1/7 of the world’s population came after me before I was even born (See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/One-child_policy#Enforcement). I was the second one born in my family, my existence was illegal. Then they tried denying me the legal documents like a birth certificate.
Then later my older brother started being abusive towards me and he tied me up at home using zipties and watched me suffer. He would’ve been the only child had my parents followed the government policy, but then I came into existence and he didn’t like that my parents had to split their attention, so that’s why he was torturing me. It got so bad that one day, I ran away from home once, then later my own mother told me she would not miss me if I was gone. Then the family (I’m saying “the” family instead of “my” family, because I don’t feel like I was ever part of it) moved to the US, and I was promptly facing racism and xenophobia, my fellow Chinese American classmates didn’t defend me either. People would exclude me, and I once overheard kids talking shit about me behind my back. Then when I defended myself against a bully, I was the one that got arrested. School admins decided to be a dick, I was a minor for fucks sake, and it was fucking SELF-DEFENCE.
Now my adopted country’s government declared war on non-whites. My previous country is already a failed dictatorship. I have no where to go. Which is why I feel like this is a torture chamber designed to punish me.
Less of “attention” more like notoriety. Everyone hates me for some reason.
Sounds awful, i think i can empathize. I strongly suggest thinking much less about grand concepts, and instead put all your thoughts and energy into practical things you can do to improve your life. Things like:
… and other stuff like that. Focus on how to make your everyday life a better life to be living
The author is setting up your backstory before you get the cool superpowers /hj
On a more serious note
~Dak’kon from Planescape: Torment
And don’t you dare go hollow!
Honestly, my “backstory” is absolutely insane.
Like normally people just have the typical “I was an unwanted child”/“failed abortion”, or “I was born as a result of [S.A.]”, but like mine just went from 0 to 100, “my government sent agents to try find my mother to force an abortion” crazy icebreaker. Its an insane story, but I was born during the years when that policy was active, and I do have an older brother, so I know that my mother wasn’t just bullshitting me, its corroborated by legal documents, relatives, history and news articles regarding that policy, and my childhood memories.
But what good is a good “backstory” if I die within the first 10 minutes of the movie?
Cuz I’m totally just getting the GoT season 1 “anyone can die” death
GoT S01 Spoilers
I’mma so get Ned Starked 👀
Or worse, those dudes on the wall that got executed in the very first acts.